Doin' Designs

In all honesty, I’m still trying to decide how I feel about this video. While certain details, such as the dolls and sets, turned out pretty much exactly as I wanted them to, because they took so much time to make, the film itself isn’t all that I had planned…It’s a bit choppy, and not quite so cohesive as I’d wanted. But basically, the concept behind it is, as this is supposed to be a self-portrait, I decided to create two sets in which the main one is representative of my mind, and the other, my heart. I have a hard time getting out of my own head, and if alone, or just faced in an awkward situation, I tend to go off into my own little world. I am also very idealistic, so the thoughts going through my head are usually about how things could be, and I end up building things up to be so much better than they are, that when I realize that’s not how the world is, it tends to feel like a big battle between the How It Is and the How It Could Be, and then I get really bummed out, usually until I get out of my apartment or get around people I love, at which point I am reminded that while things may not be what I wish they are, my life is pretty good.